There was times I had this dreams of being closer, closer to the warmth feeling of a secure and peaceful environment. Thinking of this every moment gave me a sad repeating bad memories of my past.I've said to myself, the past is the past that make the mistakes to be undone by remaking a new positive opportunity in the near future ahead. Listening to positive ideas and good wisdom from the elders do give me strength to go on with my life. The elders advise me to pursue life with full of joy by taking the strong part of my selected joy and happiness and convert it to everyday important jobs. It was useful to overcome the sadness if ever for me to remember the bad memories I had in my past.
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THE ABSOLUTE PROBLEMS
The pain, in vain of planning the best for my future. Cried night after night to solve this critical state of mind, need the elders...But will they be in peace if they were to reply? Nerves got in to me, what dear plans of desired truth will I get if my plans were the right answer? I have got to hold on...If I must survive this problems I had been facing.
- "Who will be my treasured partner?"
- "Who will trust my heart and noticed the truth?"
- "Who will be the true love of my life?"
This three things I wonder every time I went to bed, the three wonders of hope and joy to oneself. I prayed every time to have a safe journey ahead, making sure I did not "make the same mistakes again". The one I "had" in the past was gone, not because of hate or dumped for fun. It is because of "time and responsibilities" for every individual is to take care of. It is my decision to kept her as a friend, a friend which I had much feelings...But her feelings deepens and another had took the place beside her, a new love which she finds troubled to achieve even the slight movement at the edge of a thread.
The love I had of her is still great but I can't deny the truth of the reality that I must obey which states the rules and obligations. Such as the rule to confront education first, repay my parents by giving the love and a helping hand till their end. My great promise to control and target them all as a will and a role of a good father in the future, I must deal with it first which is to support if any of my future children to convey their interest in their life ahead.
But "Who" will be my future love of my life? Am I ready now?...I do still wonder...When?
@MY HOPE OF JOY@
- "Who will be my treasured partner?"
- "Who will trust my heart and noticed the truth?"
- "Who will be the true love of my life?"
Who will be my treasured partner that trust my heart which noticed the truth of me and become the true love of my life?
This three things I wonder every time I went to bed, the three wonders of hope and joy to oneself. I prayed every time to have a safe journey ahead, making sure I did not "make the same mistakes again". The one I "had" in the past was gone, not because of hate or dumped for fun. It is because of "time and responsibilities" for every individual is to take care of. It is my decision to kept her as a friend, a friend which I had much feelings...But her feelings deepens and another had took the place beside her, a new love which she finds troubled to achieve even the slight movement at the edge of a thread.
The love I had of her is still great but I can't deny the truth of the reality that I must obey which states the rules and obligations. Such as the rule to confront education first, repay my parents by giving the love and a helping hand till their end. My great promise to control and target them all as a will and a role of a good father in the future, I must deal with it first which is to support if any of my future children to convey their interest in their life ahead.
But "Who" will be my future love of my life? Am I ready now?...I do still wonder...When?
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